Unfortunately Moctar's paralysis has not changed. Though there seemed to be some initial improvement when cancer treatment was started he seems now to just be wasting away.
So we had to do the worst part of our job. We told the family that we could do no more to help him and that he could go home. We paid for him and his family to take a taxi back to their village. We told them that if his pain became too much they could come back and we would help with pain management. I don't know if they would come back or not but at least they know we are available.
It is painful to have to look a child in the eyes and know that he will die and we can do nothing. Even his eyes staring at me now are piercing. These are the moments that are so clear to me that we are merely man and that all we can do comes from the hand of God.